His Master Plan
By: Cassie Smith
Have you ever felt so sure you’re going in the right direction and then all of a sudden the rug is pulled out from under you? It leaves you feeling like everything is crumbling all at once. When this happens, it can feel as all of our hopes and dreams are shattered. It may leave you feeling confused, upset with God. You might find yourself questioning where you went wrong. This is because we are put in a situation that is out of our comfort zone. We all desire comfort. We want to feel safe. We plan each and every single day. From the date on the calendar, to the minute on the clock. We live by a schedule. When we are consumed by our plans and our timing, we put ourselves in a situation where we rely solely on ourselves. We find comfort in our plans, so when they are altered we feel lost. We can even feel resentment towards God when he asks us to let go of habits. I know that I did. I experienced a traumatic brain injury in 2016, and as you can imagine, it was nowhere near expected. I hadn’t planned for it. I frantically tried to piece together a puzzle with pieces that did not fit. I saw my injury as a set back, or a bump in the road. I was determined to “fix” everything as soon as I was allowed to return to school.
I was spending all of my energy trying to adjust and compensate, when I needed to bring my sufferings to the Lord. I needed to trust His master plan. Instead, I beat myself up. I pushed myself to study all day and night for final exams. With a constant throbbing headache, I remember trying to motivate myself with “you can do anything if you set your mind to it!” and “you can have anything if you want it badly enough!” The next day, I found myself lost in each exam. The exams on the screens looked foreign. I vividly remember myself leaving the math lab after my last calculus final, tears flowing uncontrollably. I felt defeated. I immediately called my mom, “I don’t know what to do. I failed all of my exams. I know I did. I didn’t know any of the answers. I have to change my major. I can’t be a doctor. This clearly isn’t for me.”
But He tells us in Leviticus 26:4,6: “I will give you rain in due season, so that the land will bear its crops, and the trees their fruit… I will establish peace in the land, that you may lie down to rest without anxiety. I will rid the country of ravenous beasts, and keep the sword of war from sweeping across your land.”
In time, I learned that my desires would be rearranged by the Lord if I let Him take control. The Lord took me all the way from a biology major on a pre medical track to an art and design student. Beforehand, I had never even thought about picking up a paint brush. From an outside perspective, I probably looked like I’d lost my mind. But, for me, it somehow made perfect sense. I had discovered the gift that the Lord blessed me with and found exactly where I belong.
I encourage you to pray for strength when you experience confusion and hurt. We need strength to fight our emotions. The Enemy seeks using them against us. We’re not enslaved to these emotions.
2 Corinthians 10:5 advises us to “take captive every thought and make it obedient to Christ.”
He doesn’t promise it to be easy. We’re fighting a tough battle here on earth. He knows that we will struggle. He begs us to share our struggles with Him. He begs us to place our trust in Him and His master plan. When we do, He leads us on the path to holiness. When everything seems impossible, He’s there holding us. And He will never let us go.
Depend on Him wholeheartedly and He will turn your sorrow into sanctification.